4 posts tagged “sleep”

Denver Trip

Day 3

8-20-08

Gilmore Girls

I love vacations, even when I have to wake up at 6:30 in the very, very AM. Today I have my doctors’ appointment at the Women’s Center for an annual exam I’ve put off for a couple of years. The doctors’ office is close to mom’s work, so she is going to take me on her hour lunch break. Which of course means I had to come to work with her. I could not find a internet connection so I grabbed disk 3 of the second season of Gilmore Girls and am having a small marathon in a corner empty desk. I’ve had 1.5 cups of coffee so far and a single bite of Slim-Fast Optima Chewy Granola Chocolate Chip Bar. I’ve only had one bite because my stomach immediately rejected that single bite and there’s not much chance of me eating anymore unless I become starved. (Which might happen cause, I don’t think mom planned food in this day, lol!) I might have her drop me off at the mall after the doctors’ appt. Yummm, over priced food court pizza…every mall has that right??? One can hope.

Helecoptor

The visit was the best one I have had, ever. From now on I have to come to CO once a year for this exam. We ate burgers down in the hospital cafeteria, my Turkey, Bacon Cheeseburger and fries were delicious. Mom dropped me off at the mall where I found the pizza area and grabbed what looked to be a supremely delicious pepperoni/olive pizza, looks can be deceiving. I hate to say it, but this mall was boring. There was not a single place that sold DVD’s or CD’s, and the only electronic store was Radio Shack, I won’t even go into that store as everything is twice the cost it should be. So I found a place to get a 20 minute massage for $20, it felt great! I decided to go for a walk and ended up walking crossing four six lane roads (at the stop lights) and taking a bridge over a highway before finding myself at Mom’s place of work. I may have taken one wrong turn at some point too. But I made it, in thirty minutes no less.

As a person, Mom’s boss is very nice. I may have jumped on him for turning off the air conditioning a little after I arrived because I was still hot from my walk. The sun IS a mile closer after all, and even though I pretty much walk everywhere I can walk to, I still get hot. We had great conversations about school and getting through it and what to do after ward. He told me that I needed to come live in Colorado. A woman mom does not like came in and accused me of being my mom’s replacement. I rolled my eyes. Then it was time to go.

Mom's House

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The trip back did not seem to take nearly as long as it did yesterday. Of course I was not feeling sick either. We stopped at King Soopers for a few provisions before making our way the few blocks back to the house. I made a pizza and we lay in bed eating it while watching Eureka, then mom went to bed and I went on to watch Dead Zone, Ghost Hunters International and something else that was so unimpressive apparently, that’s I’ve forgotten what it was!

Audree

Do you ever wonder why the most random things will begin huge changes in the way you see things? I believe that everything happens for a reason, everything from what I watch on TV to what happened at work. It all has lessons built within. Ready to teach me whatever I am meant to learn for the day. As my life progresses the lesson meanings change to fit what is happening now, and new lessons emerge.

Today I began to look at my life with God and my life in general. We walk through life praying that by some miracle your house will clean itself up. That the pounds would just drop off in your sleep one night, no dieting or exercising required. That the knowledge you need would magically appear in your brain like some scene from The Matrix. Your cat would stop scattering your things around the house in boredom. Your bills won’t be too high. Please let me win the lottery! I meant the big one…

In reality perhaps he IS answering our prayers, by not answering them at all… If God cleans your house up for you how will you learn to clean it yourself? He’s not going to do it every time, maybe you have a maid, but that maid won’t always be there.

So the pounds just drop off in your sleep. You did nothing to get there! How do you keep something off if you didn’t fight to get there in the first place? Maintaining…I’m told, can be just as hard as loosing.

Okay so the whole knowledge thing would be really cool too. I often find myself begging for a photographic memory. I can do the reading, I just want to remember it. Shoot I would love to even remember some of it. My memory is so Swiss cheesed I can write my own book and be unable to tell you anything about it a week later. So your given the ability to look at the cover of a book and have it all downloaded into your brain. Where was the work in that? The satisfaction of learning? Still wish I had it though…

Your animal is destroying your home out of boredom…like that’s ever going to stop…give it up! Stopping it would require messing with your animals’ personality! Let’s face it, the only reason you still have your animal is because you love them and there personality.

Your bills are too high, you can effect the outcome to this one yourself. Use less electricity, buy energy saving products, if they raise the rate, switch companies! Renting movies throwing you off balance financially, rent less, or stop until you can figure out what else you can cut. Go down a package on your cable channels etc…

All easier said then done.

I think that we have to power to grant a lot of our own prayers, think about it. And what we can’t make happen ourselves? Then that’s where God steps in.  

…are unanswered prayers.

I decided to go ahead and stop drinking Dr Peppers (or any other Colas) a week ago. The first three days were easy, there was no temptation around, I had my Migraine pills within reach and I was keeping my thirst busy by always having a bottle of water or unsweetened tea at hand. However when I'm tired my resolve weakens and I show all the signs of withdrawal. It is now day five and I have just worked two 6am shifts and have been unable to take a nap because of my schedule. I'm not thirsty for a soft drink but I am not the nicest person at the moment. It's taking everything in me not to bite anyone who dares talk to me, head off.

I'm almost willing to start drinking soft drinks just to feel like myself again! But I wont.

Wish me luck!

I'm still here. Hiding in a corner until the world stops closing in around me. I'll be back before I leave for California. <sigh>

My grandma died...
Theres water dripping from my ceiling....
My ceiling and wall have turned brown...
And is mildewing...
And smells...
The apartment manager is ignoring me about it...
My employees are fighting at work...
I'm just getting over a nasty cold...
Still having trouble breathing...
Might have a stomach virus coming...
Have no sick days or holidays or anything left...
Went $2 overdrawn Wed....
Some how the overdraft fee sparked another overdraft fee...
Which sparked another overdraft fee...
I can't figure out how I went overdrawn in the first place...
I can't sleep...
I'm either exstremly hungry, no mater how much I have eaten...
Or about to puke at the mere site of food.
The money I was supposed to get for referring a friend to my apt was instead credited to my account...
Then they charged me to much for my rent and took it out of that credit.
And they took out  of my credit for utilities...
Which I don't pay...
Cause I'm on the assisted living program...
Cause I make no money...
I'm poor...
Now I have to fight the apt's on two major issues...
I hate fighting with people...

I'm hiding in the corner.
I'm the one with the blanket over her head.
Though it's a camo blanket...
So you can't see me.